Tuesday, February 21, 2017

بسمة فرح #٣

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With love,
Basmah

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It was my mother, Reema, & I from our side. And his mother and sister who is my age are coming.

So right past 3isha prayer his mother called indicating that they have arrived.

Reema: enti enshallah bts8blenhom m3na? E6l3i fo8 o ana anadeek

Me: 6b3an mara7 a6la3 fo8 o ad5il o y9eer "All eyes on me"

Mama: Reema la t7awleen e5tik ras'ha yabis !

And my mother opened the door..

Mama: hala o sahla nawrtoona

Musaad's Mother: Ya hala feek wallah

Mama: Hathi Reema bnti, o hathi Basmah

كنت اتمنى الأرض تنشق و تبلعني..

His mother looked at me from head to toe. No joke. Not in a dirty way, but because she never ever saw me or my pictures before.

خطبوك عشان سمعتك كويسة على قولت أمي.
و عشاني أمك.

We all walked into the big majlis, Musaad's mother and sister sat next to each other, and facing them was Mama, Reema, then me.

They started asking questions about how many siblings do I have, about each of my parents side of the family. My mother also, asked similar questions in return.

Musaad's Mother: Basmah mt7jba?

That was the first question that was directed to me.

Me: La

Reema: Al7jab mu kl shy, Basmah mashallah 3leha mu mn alnas eli mara mnft7a bl lbs bl safar

Musaad's Mother: 97 klamik

Mama: ala5la8 laha door kbeer kman

Musaad's Mother: o hathi el sbab eli 5lana n56 Basmah

Musaad's Mother: Musaad t5rj mn snteen o al7en ysht'3il, o weda ena ytzwj 3ala b3d el 9aif. A7na inshallah bnen8l beat o al3yal kl wa7id bnena lh beat jmba fa omrh klaha jahza..

WOMEN SAY WHAT?
WHO SAID I AGREED.

I looked at my mom, as she tried to say something before I ruin the whole situation.

أنا مو عديمة أخلاق، بس حبي لك عماني..
صرت ما أشوف الا انت قدامي..

Mama: Allah yktb ely feeh al5air

Musaad's Mother: Ameen, yallah 7na ns24en o inshallah ykon been et9al

Mama: 7yakom allah eb ay w8t

Me & Reema: shrftoona

Them: m3 alslama

Us: m3 el slama

And they left.

And my mom and Reema couldn't stop bragging about him.

Okay, I will admit it. He is a complete package a good family, financially stable, has a house, but I am not sure about the looks yet.

I need to find pictures of him.

After playing a role of a CIA with the help of Lama (My best friend since KG) we finally found him.

Lama: He is not into social media. And his looks are standard.

Me: Meh, he is not cute. But acceptable.

شيء فيني ناغز قلبي..
مو مريحني..

Lama: anyways so what is the next step?

Me: there is no next step

Lama: mara7 tshofena ?

Me: Nope. The deal was to meet his mother only.

Lama: knowing 5alty and Reema they will make you see him.

Me: not in a million years.

And guess what? His mother called next day to schedule a visit for him to see me.
To my surprise my mother agreed.

I called Lama instantly..

Me: t5yly esh 9ar!

Lama: m7d mst7mlk '3airy..

Me: Lama mu w8tik !!

Lama: wsh 9ar?

Me: byji hatha ely 56bni yshofny

Lama: I told you..

Me: ma abi..

Lama: mmkn afhm leh? Everything about him seems good

Me: I am not ready to get married

Lama: who said you are getting married tomorrow !

Me: He wants to get married directly after summer. Lama I am not ready to have a husband and a house ! It does not mean I am not capable, it just I still have a life to live.

Lama: is it because of "him"?

Me: no

Lama: Basmah !

Me: I partially moved on.

Lama: partially?

Me: its not as easy you know.

Lama: I know. But why not try something new? Just give it a try

Me: mdri

Lama: to new beginnings

Me: allah yster

Lama: ya kalba ! 8oli enshallah bdayat 5air

Me: Enshallah

Maybe I am being too dramatic.. I admit !

من كثرت ما حبيتك ما قمت أشوف غيرك..
حبي لك غيّر أطباعي..
سرقت مني قلبي و تفكري و حتى أنفاسي..

1 week later is when Musaad came.

I wore the same dress I wore when his mother came; since it did compliment my body. However, I topped it with a shawl even though Lama disagreed, but I felt more comfortable covering my shoulders.

Both my mother & Reema agreed to have my brother welcome Musaad instead of my father since my father met him 3 days ago and had a semi interview with him and he approved of him. However, my mom really really likes him.

Musaad came in and started chatting with Mishaal (My brother), then my brother came to call me.

Me: mama yaweel Mishaal law 6la3 o 5lana l7alna

Mama: mara7 y5lekom

To be honest in that moment I was scarred. And my heart was pounding a million times. My mother on the other hand was flying from happiness.

So I decided to give it a try for the sake of my mothers happiness.

I entered the Majlis..

Now I was terrified.

Me: Alslam 3laikom

Musaad: w3laikom alslam

And I went and sat down on the far corner.

Mishaal: leh jalsa b3eed t3ali 8rbi

I seriously wanted to kill my brother.

I went and sat next to Mishaal. Then his phone range.

The caller ID was my mother.

Mishaal: Ast24en lazm a54 el mklama hathi '6rorya

Musaad: 5i4 ra7tik

Wow. My mother is your important call? She was sitting right outside the Majlis. This was one of her ideas so she can leave me & Musaad alone. I don't think my mom is that sneaky I bet its Reema's idea.

Musaad: kef al7al Basmah?

Me: Kwaisa ent kaifk?
(With a smile)

Musaad: Tmam allah yslmk, wsh tdrseen?

Me: Interior Design

Musaad: Mashallah 7lo, allah ywf8ik

Me: shokran, ent esh drst?

Musaad: major in Finance, and a minor in Management

Me: oh mashallah, o wain tsht'3il?

Musaad: eb sharkat AlX, bdet m3hom partial time when I was studying o lama t5rjt 9rt full time

Me: ma kan 93b 3lek tl78 been jam3a o wa'6efa

Musaad: awal km esbo3 b3den 9ar 3ady

Me: Mashallh

Akward Smile..
this is so akward..
Mishaal where are yoooou?
He was 2 meters away and staring at my face.
I feel so uncomfortable.

2 mins later mishal came in and started talked..
Now how can I leave? Should I interrupt them and get myself excused ? I probably should.

1 min
2 mins
3 mins
4 mins
5 mins

And I couldn't interrupt Mishal, then I finally spoke:

Me: ana ast24en, fur9a sa3eed

Musaad: o ana as3ad *smile*

Monday, February 20, 2017

بسمة فرح #٢

So I guess by now you figured my name; Basmah. I'm 21 years old, and a senior interior design student. I have 1 set of twin siblings Reema and Mishaal that are 27 years old.
Reema got married almost two years ago, and just had her first daughter Lulwah.
Whereas Mishaal is still single and an employee at some company as a lawyer.

So back to the story..

As my aunt & I walked through the hallways of the hospital heading to Reema's room, I was still processing what just happened with me.

Is this all a coincidence?

We entered Reema's room and decided to focus on her for now.

 Me: Al7mdellah 3ala el slama, where is my babyyyy?

Reema: allah yslmki bjebonha now

5alty: tetrba eb 3zkom Reema o allah yj3lha mn 9ali7 3badh

Reema: Ameen, shokran 5alti

Next the nurse came in, and all focus was on baby Lulwah, she truly stole my heart ❤️

On my way back home, Musaad my finance called me

Me: Alo

Musaad: Hala 7bebty

Me: Ahlan

Musaad: mabrook ma jakom

Me: Allah ybarik feek

Musaad: 38balna yarab

Me: your taking things to fast

Musaad: wsh d3wa lna 2 months m56obeen

Me: Adri wallah, bs ana a7ib a54 w8ty 5a9tan eb 8rar zy k4a

Musaad: Basmah ana lma a7ki m3ak yjeni sh3or 7lu, afra7 lma ashof whats app mnk

Me: thank you

What should I say? He is a good person from a very good family. However, there is something that ناغر قلبي.

So I've known him for 2 months, in which the first two weeks included the الشوفة الشرعية.

Flashback:

I remember I was out, and I called the driver to pick me up from my friends house. Once I got home, I went to say hello to my mother and she had that smirk on her face.

Me: feek shy mama?

Mama: fe wa7d mt8dmlik.

My heart stopped for a second and then started pounding a million times in a second.

أكون لغيرك؟ مستحيل..
طول عمري تخيلت أكون لك حبيب..
أطري على بالك؟
ولا صرت من ماضيك؟

Basmah focus here. He is gone for good.
Where did all the "I've moved on" talk go?

I asked my mom in a hesitation:

Me: mean?

تمنيت و قلت ياليت..
تتهجى أمي باسمك..

Mama: Musaad AlFlani

Me: n3rfhom?

Mama: a3rf 5alta o nas mara kwaisen o sn3een o adb o a5la8

Me: bs ana ma afkr bl zwaj al7en

Mama: hathi fur9a ma tt3wa'6 mu kl youm bjek wa7id zy k4a ya basmah..

"أنا جدا قنوع ما أبي الا انت و كلك لو سمحت"
طيب و اذا ما أبي الا هو؟


Me: twni 9'3eera

Mama: wain 9'3eera ana jbt el twins eb 3mrk now..

Me: zmnkom '3eeer ya mama

Mama: ana ma ashof shy bl wld, o b8ol el abok. 5li bs el om tji tshofik 3l a8l next week..

Me: mst3jleeeen lesh?

Mama: el wld ybi ytzwj bsr3a

Me: km 8lty 3mra?

Mama: 24

Me: mn jdk mama bzr !

Mama: Basmah bs tji omk tshofik ymkn ma t3jbenhom

وينك يا فلان..
تدري أني صرت لغيرك خيار؟

One week passed by and today is the day where they come and see me..

I was nothing near excited it.  

Friday, February 10, 2017

بسمة فرح #١

I just entered the hospital, heading towards the elevator. 

A few seconds later he just walked in through the same door.

..:Basmah ! 

A very familiar sound, a sound I know by heart, I turned around, and started searching for the source of the sound

Me: hala 5alti 

5alti: hala 7beebti

Little did I know that my name did not grab my attention only, my name still triggers you? Will guess what?
ما يهزني الا اسمي من لسانك..


5alti: mbrook ma jakom, ytrba b3izkom  

Me: Allah ybarik feek 

I felt a pair of eyes burning.. 
نظرتك كانت نظرت عتاب.. 

We entered the elevator and once the door was about shut.. 

..: L7'6a 

كل المدة الي سرقة فيها قلبي أول مره كانت لحظة.. 
لحظة وحدة.. 
فتح باب الاصنصير و دخلت.. 
حسيت فتحت أبواب قديمه سكرتها من زمان .. 

5alti: Keeif Musaad? 

Me: Al7mdellah 

5alti: mta grarty bt3lnen 56btik

كنت أخاف من اللحظة الي بتسمع فيها خبر خطبتي حتى لو سكرت الأبواب الي بينا.. 
و الأحين مو بس سمعت الخبر.. 
سمعت الخبر بيني و بينك مسافة متر بس.. 
سكرت عيونك.. 
حسيتك تمنيت أنك ما تسمع الخبر .. 
لك معزه.. 
لاكني ما وافقت الا و انا متأكده أني سكرت كل الابواب الي بينا، و طويت كل الصفحات.. 
بس المعزه هو الشي الي ما تقدر تغيره..
معزتك و قدرك كبير .. 
اخاف عليك.. 
حتى و انا لغيرك..
ماهي خيانه.. هي وفاء بعد كل العشره الي بينا..

Me: wallah ma adri lissa

اعذرني يا فلان.. 
ما توقعت أشوفك ..
و اليوم الي أشوفك تسمع خبر خطبتي و أنا على بعد متر و أحس بأنفاسك و هواك.. 

The elevator door opened and We stepped out; 5alty first and I followed.. 

I swear that I heard you saying WHY? 

I looked back and my eyes fell on the same pair of eyes I fell in love with a couple of years back.. The same eyes that stole my heart.. 

But this time those eyes and this look felt differently..

عيونك كعيون الصقر.. 
تنظر إلي كأنني فريستك.. 
و بالأمس فقط كنت حبيبتك.. 
بسرعة الرياح.. 
و سرعة تدفق المياه.. 
خسرتني..

أول مره أحس بعينك كره..
و كرهٍ لشخص كنت تقوله في يوم من الأيام يا أغلى من دنيتي كلها..



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Hello there reader,

I've always had a hobby for writing, and I have tried to write a blog once thus never had the chance to complete it. A couple of years later I have decided to start from scratch again. I write because I enjoy expressing my feelings into words, and sharing it with the world around me. I hope you enjoy the story, and your feedbacks are highly appreciated.

Love,
Basmah
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